Knocking a few words together again


All at once some voices in my blogroll that have been silent are posting. Believe it or not, I’ve been working up a head of steam to start fitting words together again myself. It must be something in the air.

It’s been a trying year so far. Projects and plans and spirits have unraveled. There’s less walking around money in the wallet, and there are possible unfavorable financial changes floating in the atmosphere just as I am coming close to retirement.

I’m not going to talk about any of it in greater detail than that. My decision that I cannot, that I will not talk about these matters openly has pretty effectively zipped my mouth shut for months.

My response has been to become a sponge. My Google Reader overfloweth with other people’s tasty tidbits. It’s getting a bit boring, though. I’ve also come to realize that the act of writing has had positive effects on my life in the past. My period of most active blogging came when I was working on my master’s degree and working full time. Activity is better for us than passivity in nearly all things, so I want to again become an active blogger, or to turn away and redirect my time to something else.

I have had a productive year of knitting and learning to spin, and have some finished work that I have not shared publicly. I want to still blog about the things I make, but I don’t want to blog only about knitting and spinning. That’s boring, too.

Thank goodness I think we’re starting to reknit the fabric of our life into something that might be sustainable. Partly lowered expectations, partly back to what once was, partly moving towards a new stage of life. This also gives me some energy to write again.

The act of posting is the fitting way to finish this. Lights, camera, ACTION!

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